Beginning

Well, today is the beginning of my blogging experience. Now I know that nobody will most likely read this, as I seriously doubt that I will broadcast my less than fascinating news to anyone, lol --I don't even know why I am doing this?! Wouldn't it be better to write my daily thoughts down in a jounal for only my eyes to see?...Probably, but truth be told, I am a lazy writer, and due to my many hours on the computer, I have become the slightest bit proficent @ typing--did u catch the symbol for the word? Pretty cool for a almost 50 yr old to type like that, huh?--lol Yep, that's the precise reason for starting this whole blog crap for anyway...On December 7, 2010, I will officially turn a half-century old- God help me, please...I cant really believe it at all. Sure everyone says that, I'm sure, but I really don't, for sure. I am almost 50, *whoohoo* guess I better get used to saying that...I am married, a SAHM to a 14 going on 44 teenage son, stepmother to 2 grown girls, and a granny, or mimi, as I am called to almost 4 yr old grandson. Thats my life in a nutshell, I suppose. The frazzled part of my life comes with all of that and more. Being married is an adventure all by it's lonsome-As of today, since yesterday, I am not speaking with my better half (dont take that literally, because he is on my s**t list, haha) This year we will have been together 20 years---wow, isnt it amazing that even though he is almost 54, and well, you know how old I am, that he can still get on my nerves so bad...Sometimes I just think about chucking it, and leaving, but lets face it, I am old, and we surely dont have the money to divorce...plus, I do love him--gosh I sound lame! Whatever, I suppose...probably tonite, he will apologize yet again, and I will finally forgive him,...again. Our son is a teen, who is very intellegent, so intellegent in fact that he has invented a different form of the english language--for example, the word "no" becomes a two-syllable word in his language---it becomes "NO-AH", or "YE-ES"---go figure...attitude and tone go along with this language, also..He is very smart- always makes honor roll, will hopefully become an eagle scout within 2 years, so I shouldn't complain, should I?, but I will---He is a gamer--wants to have that as his future endeavor, so we shall see---He is still shy around girls, while other boys his age have lost count on their fingers and toes of the number of girlfriends they have had--He is on the short side, and is growing, slowly but surely, but I know that brings alot of teasing and angst for him, since every boy around here seems like they have been corn fed like cattle, or their parents secretly put growth hormones in their whole milk--we drink skim ;) My stepdaughters are 23, and 21 :0 I love them as if they were my own daughters, no kidding, lol The oldest just started a new job, and I am keeping the grandson today later, until she gets off the waiting list for daycare--he is a handful, but a joyful handful!--the other stepdaughter...well, she is a bit of a handful, herself- she went to cosmetology school for 2 years, graduated, and now, as since she graduated high school, doesnt have a job. In fact, even though she has a degree, now she has so very carefully decided that she wont cut hair...etc. Now she wants to be a pharmacy tech like her sister---ok...her mother doesnt seem to care that she doesnt have a job, and so they live together, along with my husbands ex-father-in- law--my step-daughter is a defensive one, like her mother--lord, I could tell you stories about OUR past, but it would take too long...lol For a little more background on me, I am a SAHM, and a diabetic. I found out in Oct of 2009. I was feeling sick, couldnt eat, only drink like a fountain, and throwing up (sorry for the mental pic) so, I thought I had the flu--got so weak, I finally went to the emergency room, where I found out my blood sugar was over 500--doc said I could have died...ok, whatever, I say...can u tell I dont like doctors or hospitals? After 2 days in ICU, and another 2 days in hospital, I was let go...Now I do eat better, and try to exercise...I was on a regular walking schedule, but winter came, and snow, and frigid weather, so now I just have been exercising some on the stupid "gazelle" machine you see on tv--"You can dooo it" tony little says...hmmmm, no comment. My sugar is fine now, I go to the doc in 2 days, and hope I have lost some more weight--I havent weighed since January, since the battery went out in our scale, and I keep forgetting to get a new battery...If I havent, I know the doc will look @ me over his bifocals, and say something--I seriously break out in an internal sweat everytime the nurse tells me to get on the scale...well, thats enough background info for now, I suppose--everyday wont be this long, I promise. I hope this blogging helps me in the coming year to know myself better, before the dreaded bday gets here, so I will be ready to face my next century--toodles for now....